The movie: an update

Well here I sit with about 1/2 a weekend of work coming up. Yes, working saturday. No I'm not complaining, It affords us our house, our food, our kids too! :) and to tell the truth I for some sick reason still like to work. What the f is wrong with me! Maybe it's that I like that what I do is value added to some extent. Horseshit, they'll tear it up and change it in 5 yrs so that can't be it. It must be that I can see it taking shape and becoming something and I get to be involved from start to finish on this crap. No, I think that's crap too. I think what I like about this stuff is that,um, well, dammit, hmmmm, well, because sometimes it's fun and there's a lot of good people involved in the same crap toward the same objective. To get the hell out of there and on to the next one!
Because there is a next one. And THAT! is the good thing about it all. If there comes a time that there isn't a next one I'll start worrying. Who the hell am I kidding. If it ever becomes a time that there isn't a next one then that would be adversity and adversity is my best friend. We like to trade jabs a lot. For anyone out there into numerology, ( for the record I am not one of them), I am an 8. What the hell does that mean? well, nothing to me but my better half says it means that anything I try to do will be wrought through trial, adversity, defeat, and consequence. That I'll have to fight tooth and nail for everything and nothing will be easy but as an 8 I'll never give up and I'll come through it all stronger than I was before.

whatever.

And what a pile of shit.

All I want to do is make a movie. A little short 13 minute movie, (notice the length for further adversity. That is if you're a superstitious type. Again, I'm not.)

But I have to work tomorrow so I won't be able to further it's progress until later in the evening. After I figure out what's wrong with the heater at the set. And why all the paneling I put up in building the set is warping. And then I have to hook up the new computer I had to purchase because my recent computer wouldn't run the editing software because I happen to have the only fairly new AMD processor that's not compatible with it. This all in the hopes that the 4x4 capability continues to work in the toyota because on the same day I bought the new computer the 4 wheel drive went out and we had to get it fixed and I got locked out of my truck because my door lock quit working so I had to keep plugging the meter at the parking lot with dollars so they wouldn't tow my truck while I tried to get into the damned thing.

I'm an 8.
whatever.

I'm going to make a 13 minute movie no matter what it takes.
At least there's a good stout at the end of the rainbow.
Oh, did I say I'm Irish too? There's an old Irish saying, or rather a law I suppose. "whatever can go wrong will." No doubt the name on my mailbox is going to be superman. Why? because some old philosopher said " what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger."

Goddamit! I'm going to make a 13 minute movie!
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And then I'll have a party.
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I don't know what to write

I remember how it started. I was staring at the wall and found everything to be emptying out of my head. If I looked down it emptied ugly all over my keyboard. If I looked up then I would feel and taste it running down my throat like some bad cold might. So here I sit at the end of the capacity hoping that something spurs a few cells to make a stand and rebel against the mass emigration.
Wait a minute. If I look down then the stuff from my brain falls onto my keyboard. Maybe it'll leach into the computer somehow this way and.....MAybe not.